Wednesday, June 2, 2010

My Dream Was Huge But Not Complicated

It was a cold December night, just two days after Christmas, five 16 years old teenagers with five hundred bucks won from a local Battle of the Bands Content debating where to spend. A debate which ended with the decision on buying dope and cheap drugs instead of investing on a Marshall Amp, well four against one is a tough fight. That was the night when it all started. A dream that even after ten years, it still remained a dream!

I was one of them and that night we did dream really big. Our dream was simple but huge. Just like any musician who love rock music and Heavy Metal, we too wanted to be real rock stars with a record deal. A world tour, playing sold our shows night after night, headlining Wacken Open Air and Download Festival, bus full of hot groupies, unlimited access to booze and drugs. Returning from our world tour to our humble homes, humble homes that would make the Playboy Mansion look like a joke, in term of size, luxuries, parties and its occupants. Yeah, our dream was huge but it’s was not complicated. We were just five regular teenage boys who loved to dream big but unfortunately all dreams don’t come true, especially dream like ours.

The whole event of that night was really a wonder. How we managed to win that contest is still a mystery as we played just two of our songs and a cover of Skid Row Youth Gone Wild and Slaughter Real Love. May be they found us cute. Comparing that night and those dreams with our current lives, I just have one thing to say; time sure does play tricks with our lives. Here I am stuck in the corporate world trying my best to survive. Our vocalist, after series of mis-fortunate events turned to a born again Christian and now he is serving as a youth counselor. The Bassist (Ric) died six months after that night. The two guitarists busting their ass every day just like me in a hell hole like mine.

Lately I have been very active surfing around the Indian Metal Scene, mingling with metal heads and various metal bands in Delhi. Being with them remind me of my past years as most of them are high school kids and college students. Knowing that they too have a dream like mine which will never come true. I know I am being negative here but Indian heavy metal scene is very much underground as the music scene in India is dominated by the cheezy, disgusting and lame Bollywood. An Indian rock band make it big in the International metal community is almost impossible. But just as anywhere, the metal community in India is united.

This was one of my many dreams that did not come true but I have no regrets because I had fun. That was ten years back but every time the memory of that night hits my mind it never fails to bring a smile with it.